How The Lord Delivered Me From A “Religious Spirit” Because of Delayed Obedience


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                        “OBEDIENCE IS YOUR PROTECTION”
-Jesus

 

If I can be very honest, I had a sense of fear and shame over take me for moments in wanting to share this testimony and writing this blog. My walk compared to other counterparts have always lets just say different lol. Many things have been said, about my walk as the Lord would always encourage me to press in and not to worry. So I always relied on him being the last word despite the scorn and contempt I faced. So when I found out that I had been oppressed by this spirit as others have thought in the past shame wanted to over take me not to share but I remembered this testimony is for the glory of God! Not only that the heaviness I endured I would never want anyone to go through that.  Through this fiery trial I  have learned a valuable lesson in obedience as children we have heard one way or the other by our parents “delayed obedience is disobedience”. Man isn’t that the truth and I have come to understand the fear of the Lord. So the lord delivered me so that this may bring deliverance to someone else! SO I SCREAM FROM THE ROOFTOP THAT WHO THE SON SETS FREE IS FREE INDEED!

During Lent this is the first time I have observed it seriously. It was a wonderful time of me doing the Lords Supper day and night with the Lord.  However, difficult as the Lord began to really do a work in my heart bringing hidden sins to the light as he was desiring to purify my heart. I had been ordained by this ministry a few month back and I began to notice the Lord was truly stripping me more and more of things of the world. He eventually began to lead me in putting a lot of ministry work and stay at his feet instead. I would come before him every morning to hear from him as he desired for me to journal our conversations and his instructions for the day. Then he called us to fasting and intercession for our nation offering whatever sacrifices we desired with our prayers. So one of the sacrifices he asked of me was my showers (okay now back story before your thinking waaa). In order to take a shower I would have too go to  friends house and I felt he wanted me to offer this too him as cross to bare for a day or two so gladly I obliged. Then in our of our conversations he desired that he wanted to teach me about obedience and discernment.  Then later on I found out the Lord was calling me to a vocation of prayer and solitude for  season at a prayer community which I struggled with so it was making sense. These things he was asking me to deny because he was slowly pulling me out of the world and into  lifestyle of prayer/solitude. This community is in the mountains and many times there may be moments we have take bucket baths so I found out about all this after the fact therefore confirming why the Lord was asking of these things.

So there are many things I use for discernment one of the things the Lord has taught me to use was a book called the “Bible promises” its all scriptures with different titles and he Lord would lead me from there. Each title meant something for me as the Holy Spirit wanted me to seek him in my decisions throughout the day so I would know his will. At first it was amazing, he really directed me through each scriptures when I would be doing ministry work online, even helped to discern what was going on spiritually with others when I would answer questions.  However, about two weeks ago a “false Jesus” slipped in and I found myself feeling so condemned many times with being called repentance, and my sins always before me and being called to a very very strict “Obedience”. I found myself becoming jealous of others and their walk with the Lord because they seemed to have so much freedom but it seems the Lord demanded so much from me. Now I reconciled this was the Lord at first because as I mentioned my walk had somewhat been that way with him. There were many things that others could do but Jesus would always ask me gently to deny and I did so out of love for him willingly. However, this time around I began to fear then love him or this strict compliance with denying myself. I found myself not feeling the freedom to go outside to take a walk, answer my phone, doing work online because as I would seek him with the scriptures he would give me “lust” and “obedience”.  It seems my sweet gentle Jesus seemed so far from me. Everywhere I reached in the span of the two weeks when this began I found when I opened the bible judgment, patiently endure, and to offer this affliction as a cross.  I was finding no relief from this anguish.  I am apart of this intercessory group but I see now out of pride and fear I didn’t open up to tell anyone because to be honest I think I didn’t want to be wrong about this. I kept thinking I am seeking you everyday you wouldn’t steer me wrong right?

Luke 11:28
He replied, “Blessed rather are those who hear the word of God and obey it.”

 

There were two points of breakthrough as I began to wake up I found myself drained, full of anxiety, fearful in ever decision and just waking up to go to sleep. I no longer enjoyed the Lords supper because I would feel worse about myself when I would leave his presence. Everything began to be a source of condemnation even worship, I would hear songs and the lyrics would began to make me wonder if I was in his will at that moment. My head felt so tight, I had such heaviness on my back, my mind was confused and I was weary. Then I felt I was asked again to fast  which I began to do however when I asked to be released from these sacrifices, like taking a shower and eating as I sought him using the scriptures in my Bible promise I would get “Lust”. I was utterly despondent but, I wanted to be obedient so I obliged but so unhappily. My family and friends something was up at this point and I find out now many had been praying for me through this. So I lied in my bed as a song began to play by “Grace Williams your anointing”.  I kept thinking as the songs began to play ” Break those chains of bondage those heavy chains…you are free, you are free. stretch out your hands receive your freedom right now”. As I did that I felt like liquid being poured on my head and the release from my head.  I than sought the Lord if I could eat at this point and I got scriptures on “Gods love”” so I knew that was  yes! I rushed to go eat thinking wait what am I in bondage too could this be  lying spirit…no it couldn’t?! (pride again)  I then sought the Lord again and he gave me this word in one of my rhemas and said ” Ask for the grace of discerning of spirits as the scriptures says you cannot trust every spirit”. I was dumbfounded I couldn’t believe that I could be deceived this way. Oh how humbling it was at this point I hadn’t reached out to any of my members of my intercessor group as to what what’s going on so immediately I did.

As I opened up telling me superior everything and what I was hearing as she confirmed those things seemed extreme and maybe the Lord was telling me to come right away to this prayer community then waiting but still I wanted to hear from the Lord myself. There was so much confusion about this decision whether to wait or go right away(pride again)

You see  the Lord had called me to this prayer community about 2 weeks prior giving me the scripture
“Do not be afraid,” Jesus said to Simon, “from now on you will catch men.” And when they had brought their boats ashore, they left everything and followed him.

However I had fought with this call because I didn’t know the Lord was leading me and finally when I come to accept it I wanted more time for him to tell me when to leave…..(hence now I see in the scripture above the they left immediately to follow Jesus so I should’ve known) My spiritual mother felt that I was suppose to come right away but I was still struggling with surrendering to this call and I remember getting a rhema from the Lord that said  “Obedience is like a knight clothed in a full suit of stout armor, with his sword on a strong and spirited horse. Riding into battle, he surely has the advantage over his foes. Whereas, Disobedience is like a knight with no helmet, no armor and no sword, seated on a sorry nag of a horse. He will surely be unseated, dislodged and taken captive.””. So here I found myself two weeks in torment thinking that the Holy Spirit wanted me to be obedient to every tedious decision I did daily in the house and not go outside, not eat while offering it all to the Lord as I am waiting. Which of course was not him but I had become that friar who sulkily obeyed by saying yes but dragging in obedience to Gods call to leave which allowed the enemy to slip in..wow. But the Lord showed his great mercy towards me and heard the cry of my heart two days. When I woke up again 2 days after having the breakthrough but still so oppressed and heavy. I woke up with the song playing in my head then I felt liquid being poured on my head again.  I thought to myself hmmm Holy Spirit what was that about as I got up from the bed I walked to my computer to began work and I found my anointing oil which had been lost for months lying right by my chair (not coincidence). So I thought of the song and I anointed my hands and head just then my spiritual mother called again as she had sought the Lord on my behalf in he midst of all my confusion. As we both sought holy spirit finding out that my discernment was way off and of course it was not Holy Spirit, she then asked the Lord if I am meant to leave everything and come right now. Holy Spirit gave her scriptures on “joy” and “success”. I was in shock but so grateful for this break through at that moment. I felt a peace I couldn’t explain and my whole body was so warm with his presence. I got on my knees in tears thinking the Lord for his great mercy towards me for clarity and deliverance at that very moment the oppression lifted immediately! I literally ran outside lol and me and the “real Jesus” took a walk. As I have taken this walking routine so many times I noticed things I hadn’t before I believe the Lord wanted me to see. The first was  rose bush blooming so beautiful and I felt the Lord telling me that I will bloom beautifully and then I saw a bush I pass everyday when I would walk with the kids but as I looked closely it had fruit on there! It was an apricot tree and I felt he was confirming that as I leave I would bare fruit. So the Lord has set me free from what kept me bound, the love of the world, the love of my family, my own wisdom and my need to know when I don’t understand.  I see how now the importance of immediate obedience is may he give me the grace to “get up, leave everything and follow him if he ask me again. So no longer in the waiting…this is a new season and chapter in my life as I dive into the unknown with Jesus and in freedom to be all that he has called me to be!….So please be obedient immediately to whatever the Lord is asking or calling you too you wont regret it!

Praise to God for His Salvation and Providence!

Praise is awaiting You, O God, in Zion; 
Psalm 65
And to You the [a]vow shall be performed.
2 O You who hear prayer,
To You all flesh will come.
3 Iniquities prevail against me;
As for our transgressions,
You will provide atonement for them.

4 Blessed is the man You choose,
And cause to approach You,
That he may dwell in Your courts.
We shall be satisfied with the goodness of Your house,
Of Your holy temple.

5 By awesome deeds in righteousness You will answer us,
O God of our salvation,
You who are the confidence of all the ends of the earth,
And of the far-off seas;
6 Who established the mountains by His strength,
Being clothed with power;
7 You who still the noise of the seas,
The noise of their waves,
And the tumult of the peoples.
8 They also who dwell in the farthest parts are afraid of Your signs;
You make the outgoings of the morning and evening [b]rejoice.

9 You [c]visit the earth and water it,
You greatly enrich it;
The river of God is full of water;
You provide their grain,
For so You have prepared it.
10 You water its ridges abundantly,
You settle its furrows;
You make it soft with showers,
You bless its growth.

11 You crown the year with Your goodness,
And Your paths drip with abundance.
12 They drop on the pastures of the wilderness,
And the little hills rejoice on every side.
13 The pastures are clothed with flocks;
The valleys also are covered with grain;
They shout for joy, they also sing.

-From Jesus with love

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Spiritual Muscles Are Grown In The Fire

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The Lord indeed uses temptation, trials, problems, tribulation, the valleys of life, the wilderness and the fire to grow our spiritual muscles……just so he can then give us a crown of beauty instead of ashes

 James 1:1-4 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

Many Christians cry out for the fire of God. We ask the Lord to fill us with his fire, consume us with his fire, set us on fire and when the fire comes we…..run in fear, in confusion, in hurt and complaint. (or am I just talking to myself  lol) I would tell the lord that in my prayer time as I would look at the apostles of old who where endowed with power when the fire of the Holy Spirit came upon them or seeing many of his servants who are so consumed with the fire of his love that they walk in such a beautiful intimacy with him. I just didn’t comprehend the fire would be so hot at times and comes to not really set us on fire but to BURN EVERYTHING IN US THAT IS NOT OF HIM.  This season has indeed been a time in the fiery furnace and the more I walk with Jesus I recognize that the purification process its just that a process. Its not a one time thing but continuous testing of our love for our God and our neighbor in every season I believe one way or the other.

However, what I am recognizing why the Lord tells us to count it joy is that not only is it an opportunity to become more intimate with him in these trials because we run to him and to be purified but once we get out of self pity, the complaining, and the pain of it he would like to teach us how to walk through the fire. Equipping us with lessons, and strategic strategy against the enemy. Trials equip us for Spiritual Warfare and grow our spiritual muscles. Just as when you work out the more resistance you have the more your muscles grow and become stronger. However, anyone who works out knows when you began to work out with resistance your muscles began to tear, it burns, the next day your muscles are so sore and when they rebuild they are stronger than they were before. That’s how trials are for believers, when the Lord allows the enemy to bring resistance, it tears sometimes our very foundation, it can shake your whole world apart but the Lord allows it to tear down in us what is not of him, to shake our fragile foundation in order to build upon it the rock. The fire never consumes us even though many times it feels like that but it comes to refine and purify us.

I love what this Pastor said just yesterday when I went to my sisters bible study he reference Romans 12:1 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God–this is your true and proper worship and conjunction with 2 Corinthians 2:15 For we are to God the pleasing aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. That when we offer our bodies as a living sacrifice that means to die to ourselves as the Lord test and tries us and the fire of God comes to burn out the chaff in us and kill our flesh completely and as we burn which is all SELF..self esteem, self confidence, self opinion, self will, self-pride, self help we than become a sweet aroma., pleasing to the Lord.

So I don’t know about you but the word of God says if one suffers we are all suffering in the body. So I believe many others are going through fiery trials right now, you may be asking the Lord why me, I cant take it any longer, Lord deliver me, but I am learning that when fiery trials come the weapon of our warfare is PRAISE AND WORSHIP…truly. That’s the weapon of choice, counting it joy. Lord can you please give us the grace to see from your perspective through our trials and sing our way through the fire as David did so many time. So be encouraged my fellow brethren, you are in training don’t run from the process but be steadfast and preserver! Praying for you all

-From Jesus with love

 

When You Mess Up, Don’t Run From Him But Too Him

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I found myself this weekend kind of avoiding my alone time with the Lord as my heart and mind were swarming with thoughts of discouragement, frustration, weariness, discontent, and confusion. For the past couple of days I have been having difficulty in hearing from the Lord clearly and I would seek him for a rhema word  yet not really understand what he was directing me to do. I was getting words from him about “Laziness” twice in a row (eeeh I hate getting that besides sin and pride, makes me cringe) The rhema book provided scriptures on slothfulness so anytime the Holy Spirit gives me laziness it definitively not a good thing. He then also gave me rhemas about specifically being given priceless gifts from heaven and I need to use them or on that day before the Lord I will have many sorrows. So I felt the Holy Spirit telling me  I am being passive or lazy about work, ministry work to be exact. Not utilizing my gifts for the kingdom with the time he has given me. The confusion came because I am not working at this time which I strongly believe was a commission from the Lord to trust him to open the door to the place he wants me at and not just any job.  Then he gave me another rhema of “Submitting to Authority” I began to see how serious he was thinking what have I missed because I have been patiently waiting for 8 months, so getting this word twice threw me in a spat of confusion. Which of course opened the door to the enemies oppression.

James 4:7
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.

I began to entertain lies from the enemy and get in my flesh. I found myself complaining and honestly being frustrated with the Lord ( I know) but, I was. It has been difficult this season being back home believing it was God’s will. Babysitting watching my nieces pretty mush the whole half of the day whiles my sister works. Then trying to squeeze ministry work in late at night even staying up way into the AM just to get things done. So as I began to resist the Lords admonishments I opened my heart to receive all the arrows of the enemy saying ” I missed God”, “whats the point”, “everything I am doing is in vain anyway” “what I am doing is not good enough”, “He was the one who told you to come here so how can he expect you to be focused in this environment”. Yes I began to entertain all these thoughts and lies, as I did I began to run to food for comfort as well in the midst of my fast, just feeling like throwing in the towel to give up already. Thoughts of overwhelming sadness, my heart hurting, disappointment grief, and condemnation came over me. So I knew I had to rush into prayer to repent, ask the Lord to clean my heart but I had been avoiding this the whole day. I knew Jesus doesn’t condemn but, I kept thinking oh how I bet he will be disappointment and I deserve this oppression and to be honest I just didn’t feel like praying .

(SIDE NOTE: SPIRITUAL WARFARE 101 Whenever in your walk with the Lord you don’t feel like praying that’s when you NEED TO PRAY all that the more!)

However, when I finally stop fighting my flesh and got into prayer so I can pour my heart out before the Lord in tears. I saw a picture impression upon my heart, of course it wasnt a mad God who had his finger pointing at me saying “how could you”, I am mad at you, or even disappointment. No, I saw Jesus with the sweetest smile just waiting and before I could say or do anything I felt him say “Come hear” and he held me ever so tightly so close to his heart as my head was under his chin. All I could do was began to cry and cry. After a few of him holding me I wanted to let go and look him in the face and he wouldn’t let me as if to say. Its okay, just rest hear don’t be so quick to do anything but just stay right here and He held me even more tightly with the greatest compassion and love. I was like Jesus I don’t deserve this, and he said your right you don’t but its my mercy and love for you, that will never change. We had the sweetest communion and of course the Holy Spirit picked the best songs about falling short, stumbling into sin and the last to not give up!

I realized in prayer that I had been walking in a posture of entitlement before the Lord which the root is all pride. That in giving my whole life to the Lord and upon walking in obedience in the midst of this suffering I deserved some things and If they were not coming I had every right to be frustrated. I couldn’t believe how nasty my heart was, wow that I felt entitled. I felt the holy spirit tell me “We don’t deserve his goodness or his judgment”. Wow, we don’t deserve neither, when the Lord saves us, transforms us and even reveals himself to us its all by his mercy. We don’t deserve any of that and when we walk in condemnation, guilt or shame and we believe or the enemy tells us we deserve consequences that’s a lie because we don’t deserve that either. Jesus took upon the cross all of these things so we can walk free freedom as a son or daughter of God without condemnation. How many Christians feel that way in their hearts sometimes and both thoughts make us run away from God rather than too him. The beautiful thing is what we are entitled too as Christians is Free grace, mercy, love, compassion, and companionship because of the sacrifice and blood of our sweet Jesus! SO RUN TO HIM NOT FROM HIM, YOU ARE FORGIVEN!

-From Jesus with Love

 

 

 

 

Perfect Love Cast Out All Fear

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The Lord has been really teaching me about leadership and his love those two things go hand in hand. I went to a our youth ministries leadership conference this past weekend and they had a time where the prophetic ministry at our church gave us at random prophetic words. This has been a difficult week and I asked the Lord if he would give me a word and they did.  The word was that I was surrounded by darkness….(I know right first I was like waa I don’t receive this but wait for it lol). That I was surrounded by darkness feeling pressed on every side but, it was because the darkness was attracted to my light. That I found myself sometimes wondering why do I draw the most interesting people because The Lord has drawn a lot of broken and wounded people around me because he can trust me with them. That I have a gift of relational evangelism and my life would be a testimony for many because of my consistent walk with the Lord. I began to laugh because that is so true and I have noticed that it has become very apparent in this season of my life as I have stepped up in leadership. The Lord continues to remind me that “he has sent me people to love and I shouldn’t turn them away”.

1 John 4:18
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

I have noticed that sometimes in the Body Of Christ unfortunately, we have away of hurting and rejection people out of fear. Sometimes we do it purposefully and sometimes its ignorantly but it all boils down to our lack of love. Everyone is a different levels of freedom in our Christian walk and we can easily talk about that person state under the label of  “being cautious” when it can be gossip saying be careful this person has this spirit, this person has that spirit, this person is struggling with this sin, you don’t want to get to close to them like their a disease or something. Which further caused the person to be rejected again and not walking in any more freedom than they were before. This mentality has broken up many friendships, families, and even churches.Even if the person is indeed is struggling or bound by some spirit we know that are fight is not against flesh and blood so you fight this in the spirit with prayer and with……..LOVE for that person! I have experience this in my own life through church small groups and my own personal experience where I was rejected as well because of Spiritual warfare I was going through. It was so painful to be rejected by my own Christian brothers and sisters who I thought would be the source of encouragement during the most difficult time in walk with the Lord.

Mark 2:13-17
While Jesus was having dinner at Levi’s house, many tax collectors and sinners were eating with him and his disciples, for there were many who followed him. 16 When the teachers of the law who were Pharisees saw him eating with the sinners and tax collectors, they asked his disciples: “Why does he eat with tax collectors and sinners?”

17On hearing this, Jesus said to them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”

You see not once was Jesus moved by all the darkness, demonically bound, and spiritual dead people around him when he walked this earth. So why do we as Christians? Jesus first perfect in his love because He was and is Love! He was so confident in who He was, in Who He served and the power that was with in him. As Christians were called to do the same. It is important to seek God for wisdom in all things but, were called to take authority over spirits of darkness and to be friends to the sinners. We are the light of the world so they will be drawn to our light and that’s okay because that’s when we can impact them with the love and power of Jesus Christ. I love what Jesus said that its not the healthy that needs a doctor but, the sick. So when we see our Christians brothers and sister sick, struggling with a lust of the flesh, or strongholds or even the lost who are sick spiritually they are the ones that need Jesus the most and not to be rejected or outcast because they are not free.

The scripture says the one who fears is not made perfect in love. Wow so as a Christian if we fear we then allow the evil spirits of this world to have more power over us. When the  word of God says greater is in me than who is in the world! So when you find yourself around those who are in darkness that’s a great opportunity to allow your light to shine even brighter rather than being afraid of  being attacked, trusting or even loving them. Most importantly as a leader its important to realize the Lord has called you to bind the wounds of the hurting, to go after the lost and that can only be done with his perfect love. You will never serve perfect people and if you are then your not really serving the Lord lol. So Perfect love cast out all fear. Ask the Lord to perfect your love.

-From Jesus with love

When Your Vacation Turns Into A Mission Trip #NewBraunfelsforJesus

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I’m learning more and more that my life is indeed not my own. When I made a committed to the surrender to the Lord  he meant surrendering all things. My time, My life and so called vacations as well lol Honestly, has been the most amazing adventure yielding myself to Jesus so he can live his life through me!

Philippians 1:21
For to me, living means living for Christ, and dying is even better.

So about three weeks ago my best friend comes up with an amazing idea and gateway for us to rest and seek God for the year. She got a good deal on groupon with a cottage/hotel in New Branfels in the Shilterbaun waterpark resort. The night before I stayed at my friends house and the Lord spoke to me to fast for the whole trip. I was like wait, Noooo but, once again #surrendered. I was excited because we were in such a need for a vacation or so we thought lol. As we were headed out my friend stated that the Lord spoke to her about this trip stating “our worship would activate all of heaven”. I was so excited to hear that because both me and her are worshipers at heart. We love to worship, so as we headed out on this 3 1/2 hour drive we blasted the car with worship music as we sang our hearts to the Lord. The Lord showed me the most beautiful picture of fragrant flowers shooting up from the top of our car all the way into the sky and piercing all of heaven into the throne room of God to be a fragrant offering to him. It was so beautiful!

As we arrived in the city we felt such a heaviness it seemed so dry…spiritually. We rode past a catholic church that had a huge shrine made out to one of their saints. Then we stopped at a grocery and that’s where the Lord had us encounter one of the many missions. There was  deli worker whom we met and upon seeing her the Lord spoke to my heart “witchcraft”. First I thought is that you Lord or me so I kept it to myself and we struck a conversation with her. She said her husband had dementia and was coming home that day but, said she believed in Jesus so we prayed with her. Then as we were checking out the cashier was a young girl and we asked to pray with her but she told us no. She really didn’t believe.  However, something still felt uneasy. So as we got back into the hotel WE had plans to relax go in the Jacuzzi….key word is WE had plans lol Jesus had his own plans. So upon praying the Lord confirmed to both of us that indeed there was witchcraft in this city and the young lady who was our cashier had actually been molested and even pregnant. Immediately, the Lord has go into worship and prayer warring not only for our sisters we had just met but for the city of New Braunfels. He wanted strongholds torn, witchcrafts roots uprooted, dead and cold hearts coming back to life and the Holy Spirit reviving the city! So instead of the Jacuzzi I stayed up all night praying when my friend insisted on going to take a dip when the Lord spoke to her and said “watch and pray”

Matthew 26:41
“Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak”

Then a worker came immediately to say the pool was closed and she had to get out. All she could do was laugh. So sure enough we prayed all night warring for that city and the people we met. The next morning we asked the Lord to confirm if it was truly him speaking to us to have those two ladies working at the grocery store when we go there and we would give them the words he spoke to us. So we then went to the city pavilion and declared the city of New Braunfels the Lords with worship and scripture that the dead bones would rise! We then got an awesome opportunity to pray for people at the local coffee shop and encourage them in the Lord.

Ezekiel 37:4
Then he said to me, “Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! This is what the Sovereign Lord says to these bones: I will make breath[a] enter you, and you will come to life.

As we got to the grocery story  me and my friend were so nervous because the two ladies were actually there! Eeek lol We asked for courage as we approached the older woman at the deli and I stated to her that a door had been open dabbling in spirituality outside of Jesus Christ caused an open door to cause her husband to have dementia. We told her we would continue to lift her and her husband in prayer. Then the young cashier was there again as we stood in the line waiting to talk to her we asked the Lord to give us wisdom because we wanted to be sensitive to the information the Lord gave us.. As we approached she immediately apologized for not accepting praying because she was distracted and a lot was on her mind. I then told her the Lord spoke to us about her last night and she was immediately intrigued. We stated that her “trust had been violated” and that Jesus was there. He cried every tear with her and then she said ” he was” we both were astounded because it was such a confirmation. We than began to tell her how much Jesus loved her and had a plan for her life. That He is her Father and her provider to trust and believe that He is real and is for her! She then received prayer and me and my friend wrote her a beautiful letter and prayer which we gave to her as we continued on our journey.

Proverb 16:9
In their hearts humans plan their course,
    but the Lord establishes their steps.

If nothing I have learned indeed we may plan our lives, our desired destination and even vacation but as a bride of Christ the Lord establishes our steps. lol Don’t take anywhere he leads you as a coincidence or even for selfish purposes because there are people all around you he wants to use you to touch with his love. Will you be sensitive to his voice, his leading and will you obey? Do so and watch him leave you in awe! I know New Braunfels will be impacted and Holy Spirit growth will happen in that city and in the hearts of the men, woman and children all for Gods glory! Amen

-From Jesus with Love

 

 

 

 

 

You Were Created To Dance In The Fire

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“You were created to dance in the fire” that’s what the Lord spoke to me in my alone time this past week. He showed me a beautiful picture of me in a furnace on fire dancing around not burned, moving freely, swirling, and twirling around unmoved by the heat, the flames that consumed me because he was right there with me. Wow, I was blown away by impression form the Lord and sidenote: I love the image for this post because embodies almost what I  saw thank you Holy Spirit lol (I always ask him to help me pick out the photos he is the best!)

 So in the last blog I let you all in on the fact of the fiery trials that were going on with cars breaking down back to back, financial strains and jobs being lost left and right. Jesus was teaching me how to have a heart of thankfulness amidst my trials and suffering. Furthermore, he wanted to teach me how to dance through them by holding his hands and keeping my gaze on him only as he takes the lead in this wonderful dance. Not only to endure through them but to count it all joy knowing that our faith will be rewarded.  As a believer you can experience fire from two different places the fire of the Lord and Fiery arrows of the enemy. The word of God states the Lord is a consuming fire (Hebrew 12:29) wow, that’s the God that we serve. For unbeliever that should leave them shaken for his consuming fire comes upon the unrighteous as a consuming wrath. However, for a believer He consumes us with his love, his glory, his anointing, his power and how is it possible were able to contain it all in our weak vessels of clay called bodies its only by abiding in him. By walking with so when fiery trials come so he can teach us how to dance when the fire of God falls on us and when the enemy releases his fiery arrows at us as well! lol

There are three scriptures that came to my mind. The first was Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego this was a perfect example of what it looked like to dance in the fire with Jesus because these guys were literally in a fire. I can imagine what that day was like they all were facing what looked like death because they were uncompromising serving the one and only true God. If they wouldn’t bow to the statue of the King they would be thrown in the fire. How many times have you been in a situation where you had to make the right decision that would cost you, maybe even cost you your life? Did you have faith to trust God in that moment were you full of fear, anxiety, worry and doubt? I love their response to the king as they faced death with fire they said:

Daniel 3:16-18
Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego replied to him, “King Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. 17 If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to deliver us from it, and he will deliver us[c] from Your Majesty’s hand. 18 But even if he does not, we want you to know, Your Majesty, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.”

Wow, that response took a great level of faith. They knew that God would defend them and deliver them. I love the fact that they said even if he doesn’t we will not lose our faith, lose our hope, we will not cower. Amazing! May we ask for that grace to have that response  when the Lord will doesn’t look like our will (They danced, I would say boogied in the fire! lol)

The second scripture the Lord brought to my mind was:

1 Peter 4:12-13

Dear friends, don’t be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through, as if something strange were happening to you. 13 Instead, be very glad—for these trials make you partners with Christ in his suffering, so that you will have the wonderful joy of seeing his glory when it is revealed to all the world.

This scripture talks about the sufferings, trials we go through as believers sometimes our trials aren’t based on a decision that we made or any open doors but these are our crosses to bare, our sufferings that we can offer to the Lord. They allow us to grow in virtue. Have you ever found yourself in a situation that seems overwhelming, burdensome or even painful and you immediately go into thinking its the enemy. There he goes that sly little devil and you start praying, binding, rebuking and the Lord says “stop its me. I am allowing this for my glory, for you to grow in your faith, and for you to trust me”. Lol Those are the times you have to cling to him and his promises all that the more.  Will you trust him when your rent cant be paid, when people speaking against you, when you have no way around, when you have nothing to eat, when they say you cant have a child, when the Dr. gives you a bad health report, when you have no money for the holidays, will you dance in the fire with him?

James 1:2-4
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

 

The third scripture was:

Ephesians 6:16
In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.

As a believer sometimes we forget we are in an on going spiritual battle that is very real. Ether you are a soldier in the army or your being help captive there is no middle ground in this fight. When you come to know Jesus Christ you are now a captive that has been set free and the enemy knows that very well. He will try to do whatever he can to make you feel defeated, discouraged, and ultimately held captive by him again. We know our adversary Satan and his demons are very real. They will stop and don’t stop at nothing to attempt to make our lives miserable on this earth. The Lord tells us not to be ignorant of the schemes and wiles of the devil for he is very cunning (2 Corinthians 2:11). With fiery arrows they shoot with anger, division, lies, joyously, condemnation, doubt, fear, death just to name a few. So you can find your self in a fiery situation that was caused by the enemy of our soul to lose hope, to lose trust and ultimately lose faith in the Lord.  Job was a perfect example of a righteous man who went through a fiery trial immediately all of his friends and everyone around starting believing he had to have done something bad for all these things to happen to him. He had to have sinned however, the Lord came to his defense even before the trial began as he spoke to Satan of how righteousness his servant was and offered him to Satan to be tested (Job 1:8) Say whaaaaa, yes God offered Jobs name to be tested. Makes you wonder when you go through fiery trials has God offered your name to be tested. Can He say “look at my son/daughter they are righteous and love me so much that no arrow of yours will stop them from trusting, believing or having faith in me”? You see even in the enemies fire that’s when we dance all that the more, we move with grace, compassion, understanding, longsuffering and patience. As we cling too, hold on too the one we love the most Jesus! Going completely unscathed, no burns, or singes because he is right in the fire with us. Fighting our battle, as he leads my feet in this dance of fire to trample on the enemy!

 Job 42:10
After Job had prayed for his friends, the LORD restored his fortunes and gave him twice as much as he had before.

God restored Job completely and multiplied even all that he had before. Truly our God waste no trials, no suffering, no inconvenience, no hardship or heartache and when we trust him he restores all that was lost. So will you grab the hand of Jesus and allow him to lead you through the difficult times in your life. Will you stay in a heart of thanksgiving and praise so you become so overcome with his joy that your mourning turns into dancing. That all though your situation hasn’t changed because your gaze is fixed on him you began to dance in the fire with him!  Will you trust him?……Now DANCE!

 

 

The Year of Standing In The Storm & God’s Grace

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The scripture the Lord gave me  January 1st 2015 was Isaiah 43:19 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. Oh how I was looking forward to 2015 year as taking new ground, promises coming to past and growing even more intimacy with the Lord. A friend of mine had also called me ending of 2014 to prophetically speak into my life as to what the Lord revealed would take place in 2015. He stated that the Holy Spirit was in dwelling in me, that 2015 would be a very uncomfortable year. Then friends would distance themselves from you but I shouldn’t lose heart because God would bring that back. He also stated that the Lord had anointed me and many would come to know him through me. Boy do I tell you now remember those words. This has been one of the most  uncomfortable years for me for sure.  Where do I begin, what do u do when your side swiped with  relentless attacks and you find your self in a middle of storm? Well as the word says when you have done all that you can do, stand….Lets be honest its easier said then done right lol. Upon surrendering my life to the call of God last year it has been eye opening, exciting, amazing and awesome. One of the many righteous prayers I said to the Lord is that ” Jesus I will suffer for you, whatever it looks like, whatever may come I am running after you”. Boy, I have come to know not only does Jesus hold to his word but he will hold you at your words too. So I knew trials would come, in fact my whole life has been full of them however, I thought now that I am walking in the ways of the Lord the trials wouldn’t be as hard  right ..or (maybe out of pride) I wouldn’t  really have as many trials or be phased by them because I live for the Lord now (duntadda -superhero anthem music lol) Unfortunately, I think in the past 4 months I have cried more than I have in my life time, sad I know but true I know have a deeper understanding of

Matthew 7: 13-14 “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. 14 Because narrow is the gate and DIFFICULT is the way which leads to life and there are few who find it

I was so excited when I finally moved knowing that God called me out, setting me apart for greater intimacy with him right!? I mean I even had my own prayer closet! Yes! of course but I didn’t realize It would be a season of great testing as well. In surrendering to the Lord  in excitement I realize he has given me the gift of dreams and vision. As I sought the Lord and asking him what his will was for me in this season and finally after waiting. He told me it was time to move get my own place and start a fellowship at my house,  youtube channel and a blog about all that he was teaching and sharing with me

DISCOURAGMENT- attack on your faithfulness
LESSON LEARNED-God is not concerned with numbers neither should I

The Lord had spoken to me told me to began a fellowship at my house, a prayer meeting at my job. In excitement I told my HR manager which is a great friend and we began holding meeting at the job. Initially no one was showing up then their would be times of 5 people coming then other weeks of one or two or none. The same with the fellowship at my house. I was so excited to have Christian friendships and fellowship. However it seemed people weren’t coming. One  of the days one person confirmed and i decided  to cancel and the Holy Spirit gave me the scripture “For where two or three are gathered together unto My name, there am I in their midst Matthew 18:20 I soon repented and the Lord reminded me that I always leave the 99 for 1 remember that. On another day no one showed up and the enemy was just throwing all sorts of thoughts and lies my way. I just wanted to give up thinking if I had heard the lord correctly and he spoke to me during worshiping saying “Didn’t you say you wanted me, am I truly enough for you. If no one ever came would you continue being faithful”

SPIRITAL WARFARE-attack on ones faith

He reveals a lot in my dreams and  I was really never taught on spiritual warfare even now its not talked or taught a lot in the churches.  So I began to have a lot of spiritual warfare dreams, fighting witches, demons, attempting to  cast them out of people and not sure who to talk too or what they meant. So the Lord let me to John Paul Jackson stream ministries and I have begun to have great understanding as to what I was seeing and what the Lord was revealing.

I  had a dream where I was so excited to follow the Lord an officer stopped me turning in a demon to mock me as to how I wanted to follow the lord. Immediately upon waking up the Holy Spirit showed me vision of myself walking around my room praying intensely. I was startled and of course got my bible and holy spirit opened it  to Psalm 91 as I began to pray  intensely. The most intense of the attacks started in October where I had a I woke up from another dream just to be held down in a form of “sleep paralysis” (which is another form of demonic oppression) and I heard a wirl whind of voices yelling at me to stop talking to everyone then was released. I immediately drop to my knees in my bedroom and began to pray. The scripture the Holy Spirit gave me was Romans 12:12 Rejoice in Hope, Endure in Suffering and persist in prayer. Boy did he mean that. This attack lasted for 2 months. I began to feel so uneasy in my house like  evil presence was there. I couldn’t sleep there alone if I did sleep there all  . I would pray, anoint the house but would still have restless nights and attacks. Soon I started to believe the lies of the enemy that I had done something wrong, that there was no point in praying . Worse of all I had people remove themselves from me because of the attacks. I was honestly losing hope kept asking the Lord why. Then the Holy Spirit gave me another scripture

1 peter 4:12-1

Suffering for Being a Christian

12 Dear friends, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal that has come on you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. 13 But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.

I finally went to get prayer at my church and upon a lady laying hands she stated to me a harassing spirit had been assigned to me. Not because of what I had done or my weakness but because of my strength and calling on my life. Needless to say I broke down in tears those where the most comforting word I had heard in a while. Then the holy spirit prompted me to fast for 4 days straight and received revelation in a dream of me casting out the spirit of fear from my house and then casting out the strong man! I was gracious for the Lords faithfulness.

Through the intense trials the remaining half of the year relationships broke apart, began to compare myself to others and even began to have jealously, resentment, discouragement and insecurity in my heart. Which exactly what the  enemy wanted me to give up on God, return back to my old ways and lose faith in his promises. But oh for the Grace of GOD which held me, sustained me, and carried me throughout the year to not give up. I have been strengthen and have a deeper trust in JESUS. I now know that our relationship, worship and praise to God is not based on what we feel or what we are going  through but it should be always based  on who he is.  A GOOD GOOD FATHER!

May Gods grace, peace & joy be with you this new year 2016. GOD BLESS YOU!