When Your Roar Turns To A Meow

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There are days you feel like a mighty warrior, ready for battle and not shaken by anything the world, your flesh and the enemy throws at you. Then their are days that seem to be blaaaah. Just feeling indifferent to everything, not feeling as courageous, not feeling as bold and just not feeling as strong. Your once loud roar that was full of life becomes a…… meow lol Thats how it has been for me the past few days just a feeling of apathy & weariness has taken over me but I know these are not the  fruits of the spirit. You see the Lord told me to began writing blogs, creating youtube videos and even starting a prayer meeting at my house several months ago. Which I have been doing for quite a few weeks now however, it can be difficult at times when I am going through a trial if I can be honest I don’t want to lead. I don’t want to do anything really I tell the Lord “Can I just sit back” , “Lord I am tired”. I find myself always feeling the need to be strong for others in the midst of my weakness. To post an encouraging video, to post an encouraging blog uplifting others when I myself feel so down.  It was through reading a dear friend Gigi’s blog and her transparency where I felt the Lord lead me to write this blog to boast about my weakness. Initially I was going to write another blog that roared loudly lol but I felt the Lord say you know in your weakness “I” roar the loudest.
You see I have been told many times how strong I am, or how others see so much strength in me but I am starting to realize more and more that its the Lords grace upon my life. During prayer meeting this week at my job, it was at the end of the meeting and no one had showed up however, I continued  to pray. Then a friend walked in during the last few minutes and asked me how I was doing. The way he said it was with deep sincerely as if he knew what was going on in the inside of me. I paused for a second and said fine changing the subject and he said “your really strong”. In that moment was a little surprised and told him he had no idea what I was feeling like in the inside. I was just fighting to be strong maybe if I acted strong that I would began to feel strong because I am learning “I am not how I feel”  Alot of times negative emotions or feelings can come from our own flesh however majority of the times its from  enemy  to throw us off into discouragement, be despondent and not be able then to minister to anyone because your focused on yourself. I know these feelings to well. The enemy roars LIKE a lion to steal our joy, kill our dreams and destroy our destinies…but he is not a lion

1 Peter 5:8
Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.

So I have been having to tell myself to rise up using the word of God to anchor me. To not be moved by my emotions or how I feel but press forward with faith in all that God asked me to do because  our enemy will never stop so we cant either.  Most importantly to call upon the Lord because there is  no way I can do this walk, this call, these assignments without his help and strength. He in fact is the source of  my strength I was reminded that when my roar turns into a meows He is there roaring FOR me every time and the times I do roar He is roaring WITH me. He never stops, He is the  only LION, The Lion of The Tribe of Judah, The Lamb of God, My King, My love  Jesus Christ! Greater is in me that is in the world and I am more than a conquer in Christ Jesus!. He is the only one with the roar that causes our enemies to scatter, in our various weakness he roars on our behalf every time. Thats why we should boast in our weakness because then His strength flows through us all that the more.

 2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

So Lord I come before you saying I am fickle, feeble minded, tired and weak of heart. Strengthen me oh Lord for the times ahead and give me wisdom to discern good from evil so I can judge correctly those who you have called me to lead. I ask you for the grace to finish my race with faith, perseverance and endurance. I ask that the Passion of Christ strengthen every area in my heart, mind, body, soul, and spirit so I can be a true witness for you and minister to others to bring them into your kingdom. Deliver me from evil Lord and fill me with your joy overflowing. I love you Lord.

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When The Enemy Assigned Death The Lord Declared Life & Multiplication!

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This has definitely been an exciting weekend for my family. I am in awe at the Lord seeing the fulfillment of his faithfulness, his mercy and grace upon my families life. My older brother who was locked up for 3 years was released 7 years early on good behavior to come home to be with us yesterday! Isn’t God so gracious and merciful. We  all got together at my mothers house for a celebrations. The whole family which includes, 8 nieces and nephews , my 5 sisters , my brother and a few friends. For the first time in 3 years my mother had all 7 of her kids under her roof again. So you had to imagine the house was so noisy with celebration and yes, of course yelling at the kids to tone it down lol. Toward the end of the night we had a friend group us all together to take a picture and they said wow there is so many of you all. I looked around and smiled inside because there is so many of us, to think just a few years ago the number of people in my family brought me shame, embarrassment, guilt, sadness, hopelessness, irritation and even anger.  I just had to praise the Lord for his sovereignty, his goodness, faithfulness and his grace in that moment he reminded me where death was assigned to our family he not only declared life but multiplied us as well! Thank you Jesus he is so awesome!!

You see at some point each one of my siblings even my parents have faced death. Only a few years ago did I notice this pattern and assignment the enemy was after our family intentionally, and intensely. As he is after every believer, however the Lord always protected us, sustained us and I know see the manifestation of the Lord redeeming us! So just  a little family history of the instances in our family where the enemy  could’ve taken each of us out if it wasn’t for the Lords intervention. My mother at young age of 21 was walking home from work when she first arrived in the states. She was told at the time from my uncle not to get a ride from anyone and wait on him however, she was tired didn’t listen and got a ride from a passerby. He then decided to take a route separate from my mothers house and attempted to lock her in the car. However, my mother said something told her to jump out the car during a red light and she did just that. Running for her life and she learned her lesson that day  that it was the grace of God that nudged her to run out the car. My father was also in a bad car accident where he was thrown out the vehicle and almost lost his life as a youth. Then my older brother Todd,  has had many battles. Starting from my mothers womb he almost died, they had to take him out with forceps thought he would be blind or have brain damage but,within a few weeks was perfectly fine. The following years of his adolescences and adult life got involved with the wrong crowd and friends. Had many fights, and as a family we had many nights of prayer for him not sure if he would return home. However, even with him a getting sentenced I see the Lord hand in that because the Lord corrects those he loves and keeps them from harm even sometimes we don’t perceive what he is doing. Thank you Father!

Hebrew 12:6
For the LORD disciplines those he loves, and he punishes each one he accepts as his child.”

Now to me, I had one of the most terrible accidents about 5 years ago where me and friend where driving from the club (yes partying and drinking) we were side swiped and our car flipped rolling over the median into the merging lane, we landed on top of another car and rolled again 5 times into the grassy plain across the highway about a few feet from light pole. With no seat belt  I landed right side up and I literally had a half inch scratch on my back. Where as my other friend had bruised lung but we were all perfectly okay. If that isn’t God I don’t know what is! Then my younger sister Nana Fremah also had a death or life encounter giving birth to her son, Tristen where she began to hemorrhage right after giving birth.  She at one point thought of having abortion when she found of out her pregnancy. She made an appointment and upon entering into the facility for the procedure she stated the Lord nudged her to walk out  and she did just that. My wonderful nephew Tristen would’ve never been here if she didn’t listen. Then my sister following her Nana Serwah has been in two almost deadly car accidents. One was with my other sister who follows her Nana Kondau, where the car they were driving caught on fire. They were told by a family driving beside them to jump out. So they jumped out of the car and upon the car hitting the curb it exploded. Can you believe that,  something out of  an action movie. They both walked away with scratches by the Grace of God! To add to this testimony when my sister Nana Kondua got pregnant with her children the first one we call Zay Zay was born with seizures which the Lord has already declared by his word and even in a vision that he will heal her!! The second one, Naomi was a troubled pregnancy my sister had no ammonic fluid. The doctors told her to abort but, she didn’t trusting the Lord will let the baby live. Sure enough Naomi came out kicking, screaming feisty premature baby so strong and still has no issue even now. We thank God for his Grace!! Now, with Nana Frimponga known as Nana #5 has gone through many trials of depression & even suicide. When we were hopeless and as she was admitted into the hospital, my mother weary not sure what to do but to pray. She told my sister not to take the medication trusting the Lord and sure enough the Lord guided my sister to the bible she began to read it and was able to overcome this battle. We thank God that his word is power it against any strong hold!

 Hebrews 4:12 – For the word of God [is] quick, and powerful, and sharper than any two edged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and [is] a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.

So now seeing where the enemy had not only tried to take my parents out even before they had us, then take each of us which would then stop my sibling from having their beautiful children. I remember about 4 years ago being in the car driving to my mothers house and so saddened, burdened and in despair as to where my family was. My siblings kept having a children it seemed like every year and the toll it was taking on my mom. I just broke down in the car asking the Lord why, where was here, it seems are prayers were going in circles. I was just tired and utterly broken, I felt so helpless, alone and hopeless. I know now that was the furthest from the truth. The Lord was right there and has been all along. He even brought a scripture to my attention a few months ago regarding children:

Psalm 127: 35
Children are a heritage from the LORD, offspring a reward from him.

Isn’t that beautiful scripture, that is how good our God is that even out of wedlock, even in the midst of our sin he blesses us with a beautiful gift of children and what a blessing all 8 of them are now to us. Yes, we still have our struggles in our family and by no means is everything perfect but now looking back I thank God for our numerous trials , I thank him for his Grace upon us, His Mercy, His Goodness, His Love and his Faithfulness! We are still waiting and trusting him to see the manifestation of all his promise’s but, I now know that we were never alone and we will never be alone. We can face anything as a family by his grace for he will never leave us or forsake us. Thank you Lord that when the enemy assigned death to our family not only did you declare life but you multiplied us as well!! Praise you Lord, Love you Jesus!!

 

God Sets A Table In Front Of Our Enemies To Invite Them To Dinner

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“The Lord will set a table before you in the presence of your enemies “I hear that scripture quoted a lot in a lot of sermons but to be honest its mentioned in pride so proudly. Not to say the Lord wont do that but, he does exactly that and he sets a table before our enemies just to invite them to dinner as well. Isn’t that just like the heart of God lol. By Gods grace I have come to understand  the heart of God concerning souls, they are so precious to him whether wicked, lost, or saved because he has made man his dwelling place. No temple, no building, no specific location but the heart of all men, that’s where he resides for the anyone who will accept him because that’s where we were created from, the Heart of God.

Matthew 5:43-48
43 “You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor[a] and hate your enemy.’ 44 But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45 that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46 If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47 And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48 Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.

Many times I have contended with the Lord concerning those who weren’t treating me right, who had hurt me asking the Lord do you not see what they did  or what they said in my little pity party and I promise I would hear the Lord so clearly say ” Love them, they are wounded and rejected, that’s why I brought them too you, Love them but, but, he would say again Love them, show my mercy”. Can I say it was and always is difficult to do when you feel you need to be justified but, the Lord calls us to do otherwise not only by his word but in his nature as well. All through out scripture we see many times when Jesus could’ve retaliated, cried out for Abba Fathers justice right then and there instead our beautiful Saviour in his justice cried out for forgiveness and then when even further to lay down his life for his enemies and at the cross.

Luke 23:34
Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.”

I think as Christians we all forget that we were all enemies of the cross before Christ saved us from death into life with him. Scriptures say that yet when we were still sinners he died for us. That is all of us, so why then is it so hard to forgive our enemies, to have mercy and forgive those who have hurt us, accused us, insulted us, took advantage of us, slandered against us, betrayed us,  & used us? I am definitely not saying its easy but, with God all things are possible if we just forgive by faith and our truly gracious to those who we consider enemies believe me the Lord will do the rest and began to heal wounds & broken hearts.  I was reading Rick Joyner “Final Quest” book detailing a visions & encounters the Lord gave him where he was caught up in heaven and the Lord revealed so much wisdom concerning his nature and character especially in these last days. “He said concerning our enemies  “I come to take over not choose sides. I love all Men and desire all men to be saved. I use you to save your enemies” Isn’t that amazing & profound all at the same time!
So let me ask you, who have you been holding a grudge against, who do you consider your enemy , have you been relentless attacks with accusation & slander? Well I can tell you what to do, love them to Christ! Yea, I said it love your enemies to Christ, its his love and kindness in you that will lead them to repentance!

Romans 2:4
Or do you presume on the riches of his kindness and forbearance and patience, not knowing that God’s kindness is meant to lead you to repentance?

As many things in the nation escalate for the worse. There is a strong division that has been planted by the enemy to divide people through, racism, status, class, religion, etc you name it. Even because of the news and media people now have a impulse to just have hatred, mistrust, and disdain for others because the world has gotten so dark and many Christians have hidden their light under a bushel maybe because of fear but, I encourage you not to hide your light especially your light of love! If you allow your heart to be hardened seeing what is going on then you will be easily used by the enemy to further cause division when our nation begins to fall apart. However, God has called us to stand on him the rock, he is the word, hope and our faith. Faith that perfect love cast out all fear, so by loving our enemies no matter how, wicked they can or will be that it will lead them to repentance and the Christ in you will shine even brighter! So forgive, show mercy, let go, and show grace and mercy to your enemies. Will you do that, began to declare it by faith, walk in that faith and allow the Lord to do the rest and you will be surprised who will be sitting right next to you at the wonderful wedding feast of the bride…..your once thought to be enemy now family! God bless

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Vote Under God

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In our culture and generation we seem to have this ongoing theme of Humanity saving Humanity. We see it in our movies, books and even songs. We have looked to “man” to save us from confusion, fear, chaos, destruction and even death. Believing that “man” can restore hope, peace and love again however if we put our hope in “man” they will fail every single time guaranteed. I was apprehensive to however seeing what is taking place in our nation with the elections and sadly so many “evangelicals” & others supporting Donald Trump because they believe he can restore this nation and bring something different because he is brash, bold and blunt often rude remarks regarding the changes he would like to make.  Could you honestly & confidently put your trust in him. As Christians we hear far too many times in “don’t judge”  however the bible states  that we should “judge righteously”  because All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness 2 Timothy 3:16. Scriptures show us what righteousness should look like because Matthew 7:16 You can identify them by their fruit, that is, BY THE WAY THEY ACT . What are the fruits of the spirit? Galatians 5:22-23 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Is he exhibiting any of these characteristics in deed, character, and attitude and even in his remarks.  Many see the acceleration of our nation & the world’s moral decline. Even thought out the presidential campaigns and candidates it shows the heart of America. We are looking for PEACE, desperate savoir, solution, or resolutions.  So many don’t want to hear it but the truth is the only one who can save is Jesus, in him and him alone should we have our hope to restore this nation not in our presidents. Behind the scenes nations are preparing for war as they keep us distracted.  Your seeing Nation rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom.. earthquakes in various places, and famines, Such things must happen, but the end is still to come (Mark 13:8) You are hearing of wars and rumors of wars, but while leaders are saying, “Everything is peaceful and secure,” then disaster will fall on them as suddenly as a pregnant woman’s labor pains begin. And there will be no escape ( 1Thessalonians 5:3)  So the things in this nation unfortunately, will not be fixed the way we want it. Trump can’t or wont  fix it, Clinton, Sanders, Rubio  or Obama only God can! Judgment is coming whether many like to hear it or not but the Lord tells us not to fear because he has fortold us already! Mark 13:23 So be on your guard; I have told you everything ahead of time. You see in Gods Holy judgment  is out of Love and it restores, it will restore not only this nation but the earth to what he intended it to be, he will restore life, peace, hope and love for eternity. The Lord is coming and our only savior is Jesus. So vote for whom ever you would like to vote for but please, please, please put your Hope in Jesus Christ alone.

God bless you!

When God Is Your Lover

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Where do I even start, He has ravished my heart,  captured my thoughts, my body & my mind. There is a longing so deep within me that only He can satisfy. No, no man, absolutely nothing on this earth compares to Him. He truly completes me in every way. I am absolutely nothing with out Him and everything in Him. I never knew a love like this, cant even say I knew it existed but, to forsake all that my heart desires to have Him and his heart. Why there is no greater treasure than in heaven or on earth. He is truly my God, Father, Friend & Lover in the most purest way you can think possible. That’s what makes this LOVE even more beautiful.  So many see God is a distant deity so unpersonable, lacking in emotions besides knowing him for blessings or judgment. However, that is the farthest thing from the truth. I was one of them, I never knew the Lord would and could speak to me. I thought it was a gift for a few select but, when I finally surrendered my whole life to him and he spoke to me just one word chattered every lie & wall I had built up my whole life in the  Christian “religion”. The Lord yearns for a “relationship” with all his children to come know his “person”(personality, image, likeness) through Jesus Christ his son, who was once fully man dealt with all the emotions we go through, died for our sins & rose on the third day. Through him and ONLY him may we come to have an intimate relationship with God.  You see God has always pursued us and created us for relationship with him…..can you believe that the Creator of the Universe creating us just to have fellowship, friendship & relationship with him because he has feelings and desires too. How he looooongs for that with all of us! Especially in our generation, we get to be married to the Lamb, Jesus Christ. We are the bride that he speaks of all through out scripture and in revelation.

Revelation 19 :7-9
Let us rejoice and exult and give him the glory, for the marriage of the Lamb has come, and his Bride has made herself ready; it was granted her to clothe herself with fine linen, bright and pure”— for the fine linen is the righteous deeds of the saints. And the angel said to me, “Write this: Blessed are those who are invited to the marriage supper of the Lamb.” And he said to me, “These are the true words of God.”

You can be as close to God as you want,  you can go as deep as you want to go because God is eternal and his love for us no one can measure the depth or height that means his love is infinite….you can just keep going deeper, deeper,  and deeper . The more deeper you go the more of him you want, like the sweetest honey you wont be able to get enough its amazing!

James 4:8
Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you

I started my journey in intimacy by asking the Lord to know his heart. Then he began to show me his heart in the form of burdens during worship and just having a deep love for everyone I met. Soon I began to telling him how I wanted to get lost in his heart ooh, no actually I wanted to live in it and he said “Welcome home”! Haha when he spoke those words I could’ve melted. I love it when my Love speaks to me like that, just one word does it every time. That’s where we were created from the heart of God, each of us fit a unique specific mold in his heart that only we can fit perfectly like a fingerprint.

Here in my journal entry on  01/12/2016  I had the most beautiful vision of Jesus and I getting married. I had a beautiful white dress, laced train that was attached to my shoulder and a beautiful crystal crown. I was walking down the isle and I saw him, my love, my King dressed in a black tuxedo but, with no jacket. He had a white collar shirt with a black bow tow with groomsmen surrounding him. He was ecstatic, almost jumping up with joy trying to contain it with his hands crossed and clasped in front of him. I saw his beautiful wavy hair and a dimple on his right cheek as his smile captivated me and brought me to smile even more….as I said my vows to him This is the one thing I truly seek to live in your heart all the days of my life! Will you have my as your bride, stubborn, strong willed, funny and crazy passionate about you? Yes, I have temptation everywhere in the world trying to get my attention and sometimes I look off for just a moment but, one look of your gaze God, nothing on earth compares. I say I do to you as my groom. I can’t wait to see you. To kiss your hands, feet and run my fingers through your silky wooly curls. To hear your heart beat as I lay on your chest and we dance the night away in the galaxy among the stars. But, oh how you shine the brightest. In your almond eyes I see all the galaxies combined, the universe in a twinkle gazing at me, your beloved, your dove, your bride. I love you with a fire I cant explain. I am in Love with you Lord!!

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So we have a grace in this generation none in history have had before. We get to know God even more intimately as our husbands for we are the Bride of Christ!

Isaiah 54:5
Indeed, your husband is your Maker; the LORD of Heaven’s Armies is his name! He is your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel, the God of all the earth.

So will you allow God to become Lord of your life, King of your heart, & Lover of your soul?